When I began this journey, I really thought I was headed down a rabbit hole. But as I struggled to share my heart here; I’ve realized that most everything I write will reflect my struggle to get back to a place in my life where I can be in the presence of GOD again.
Yes I used to have that, then I got married, I still had it, but as my priorities changed I suddenly realized that I very rarely experienced the presence of GOD.
The final straw was the year after I lost my father. He was my person outside my spouse. I could go to him and pour my heart out to him. but after I lost him … my heart just about broke. I was racked with guilt anger frustration.
Anyway; now I want to return, but I am completely altered. I am not who I used to be. So, I am trying to re-discover myself and I hope that in doing so, I find myself in HIS presence again.